The Weight of the Situation

So has anyone else noticed that I haven't brought up my current weight yet. Ya, that is because it is still hard for me to talk about.

Bigges Loser style "Your current weight is" about 205. Ugh. I'm only 5'4".

This blog is not going to be about weight loss, but at the beginning that was my goal. Unfortunately running doesn't counteract all of the extra calories that I eat. And it doesn't change the fact that I forget to take my medicine all of the time. Until I can get those two things under control the weight issue will probably not go away. Honestly, I'm okay with that for now. I have made one goal. I'm not ready to track my calories, but I'm going to keep a food diary. I'll write everything I ate and why I ate it. Hopefully it will help keep me more accountable without making me obsess.

Sometimes I feel like I can only concentrate on one thing at a time. And I'm really excited about running right now so I'm gonna stick with that.

Recent picture of me. From New Years. I have lost a little weight since then. I hate it. I'm still working on being who I want to be. I just gotta keep on trying. :)

I'm Amazing?

I didn't want to run this morning. My legs were just tired and I knew that my sons nurse was coming at 1 and our house wasn't exactly the cleanest. So I told myself, "I'll just do a couple of miles on the treadmill while watching last nights Biggest Loser." That sounded okay when I realized that there was no way that my son was gonna take a nap early enough to run and get showered before his nurse came. So, he was loaded in the jogging stroller and out we went. I gotta tell ya that it didn't get any easier. I had to go to the bathroom and running while squeezing your cheeks isn't the easiest. Although I suppose it works your butt muscles. hehe. But I did it. Yep. I told myelf that I only had to do 4 laps around the pond but I ended up doing all 6.

Some lady on the trail said, "You're amazing." Not sure what she meant by that, but I'll take it.

I'm amazing. Sigh.

My view on the way home. If you look close you can see the lake inbetween the marsh and the mountains.